Today I went by my high school to get my transcripts to prove I took biology. I literally could not remember if I took that class or not. Come to find out, I failed the first time, so I took it twice.
I spent two years studying something, 8 or 9 years ago, and I don't even remember what kind of room I sat in, or who my teacher was, or how it felt to fail. I don't even remember failing!
Recently, I feel like I've gone through a lot of failure, amongst a lot of success. And honestly, I truly don't think that I will ever fail this much ever again. Because the lessons I've learned from these failures, were big ones, and they will definitely help me to be such a better person in the future.
Yet, how do you forgive yourself for things you've done? Especially when you might not even be forgiven by the person you wronged? I don't know the answer to that. If I did, I think I'd be rich. And honestly, it would be great (and kind of cliché) for me to say something like, "well God forgives me, and that's all that matters." Nope, that's not what I have for you tonight. All I have to say, is that there will come a day when I hope that I LITERALLY don't remember anymore. I don't want to remember the room, or the feeling of failure, I don't want to remember. So, 8 more years... Not too bad. ;-)